My friend wrote this in her online Journal…she's 19 and it’s very touching and horrible. I want to hear your thoughts on this…

(PS: Mathew is her best friend in the world. He's a great guy...and David is her father)

David has decided to cut all ties from me. I was hysterical about it yesterday, but that's fine. I guess I should have seen it coming. And please people don't think that this is about Matthew, although it's his face, it's not his fault and what I mean by that is, my father's homophobia and adulterous behavior is what ruined our relationship. The minute he found out that Matt was gay he lost all respect for me whatsoever because I associate with him. My lifestyle is dangerous and he refused to see me since last June because he's afraid that I have Matthew's AIDS...let me clarify that Matt does NOT have AIDS, but of course David believes the second you come out is when you're diagnosed with HIV...of course we all know that isn't true, but what do you expect from a die hard Dogpatchian. **Giggles because half the cast was gay** **sigh** The point of the matter is this: He couldn't respect me and my friends and I'm not about to toss aside the best friend and thing that has ever happened to me because my father is a narrow minded piece of shit. It's just not going to happen. My father however finds it okay to let old men sleep with his step daughter, get married in secret, have affairs and yell at anyone who finds out...I don't know, that man's kharma is all over the place, but definately not in a good way. I love my friends, each and every one of them. If it means losing my father to stand up for them, I'm just going to have to do it, because he obviously isn't that much of a father if he can give up that easily. At least that's what the rational and educated side of my brain tells me...the other half is screaming like a two year old who just needs her daddy to hold her and rock her to sleep. I know I'm 19 and that probably wouldn't have ever happened again anyways. But on rare occasion my mommy still does and just the thought of knowing that my own father never wants to see me again...it breaks my heart. I love people, I have no problem doing that, I have the most awesome friends, but I'm not sure that I'm ever going to be fully secure in a relationship...how can I be when my own father can give up on me so easily? And who gets the brunt of all this? Matthew does. I don't want to need him so much. But I do, he's my family. He's my rock and my...he's the only place that I feel at home. I don't want to need him so much and I'm trying. I'm trying so hard, then something like this comes along and I'm beating myself up for even picking up the phone to call him, but that's rediculous. I GET TO CALL MY BEST FRIEND WHEN MY WORLD CRASHES DOWN AROUND ME, DAMNIT!! It's in the rule books...somewhere. I think I need to be done now, but just so you know ALL MY GAY FRIENDS I love you very much and I wouldn't trade a single one of you for anything. I'm proud of all of you and I'm very thankful that we are friends...you should go out and find me a boyfriend because now I need someone to hold me while I cry myself to sleep, but other than that one unfulfilled job, you all ROCK!!! And that goes for you too, Paige. I'm sorry if I acted wierd when I found out, it was more of a reflection of DAMN I can't get straight friends...which BTW Thank you for EXISTING RENEE!!! Yeah see guys...I have a straight friend :P **HUGE SIGH** I guess I should be done now...

It's pretty sad that 1) people can be so uninformed about homosexuality/HIV/AIDs and 2) that people are so casual about throwing away relationships with their own children/family.

That is really sad. I have one friend who is gay and her parents will no longer speak to her. But I have never heard of someone whose friend being gay drives a parent away. Its really sad, and thats all I can say.

Sometimes the stupidity of people and their overwhelming hatred of things they don't understand and fear really pisses me off.

This is so sad.

Even prime, grade A bigot Jerry Fallwell said he wouldn't disown his kids if they were gay. Cutting all ties with your daughter because she associates with gay people is outragous.

One time I asked my grandma why she opposes gay marriage. Her excuse is "it will spread AIDS." Our country has a long way to go.

Originally posted by Idioteque
One time I asked my grandma why she opposes gay marriage. Her excuse is "it will spread AIDS." Our country has a long way to go.
It's really a sad state of affairs in this country. Generally the older generations and the more evangelical Christians oppose gay rights in general, and many (if not most) of them are very under-informed on the issue, like your grandmother. For "the leaders of democracy in the world" and "an enlightened civilization" we have one hell of a long way to go, as our general population seems to be very opinionated and ignorant at the same time on such issues.

I have a question i hope someone can answer for me. Why would anyone post their inner most thoughts and desires on the internet for every stranger in the world to see? Her entire journal seems like a whole lot of drama for a reason. Im not trying to pick an arguement here, im just telling my honest opinion because my mind doesnt work this way.



By the way, my personal opinion is that a man who would give up on his daughter for any reason is a piece of garbage. But for something as simple as having friends who are gay? That just seems fictitious to me.

homophobia is terrible. I've heard of teenagers committing suidicde becasue of it. it's soooo importat to stop the cycle and stop teaching hate.

**raises hand** It's my entry, I just thought I should comment. First I'd like to thank all of you for your feedback. I'd like for everyone to know that none of this was my decision, I didn't cut ties to him or tell him not to talk to me. I was pleaded with him to overlook the matter. We don't have to make everything I do about Matt and we don't have to make our relationship suffer. I am what is commonly known as a "Fag Hag" if you don't know what that is and have seen Will & Grace...Grace would be me. I can't give up such an awesome thing, because my dad doesn't like that Matt would rather date some guy than to date me and quite frankly I'm not attracted to him that way. The point is...it is sad and I'm still very very upset about it. This happened Sunday afternoon and with the exception of work hours I've been in tears about it. My dad and I have always been very close. I don't know what the point of this post was anymore. I'm still a little delirious. But thank you all for saying what you have. It makes me feel a little better that there are people out there that realize that this is a horrible thing. I think that's all I have to say...


To answer HaVok's question, I have the journal so that I can get stuff out and I don't have to tell all of my friends one by one what's going on with me. I can also keep up with everything in their lives and not have to chew anyones cabbage twice.

I have an online journal as well, and for the same reasons. Most of the important things that happen in my life are bad things and I usually don't feel like reliving them over and over to tell my friends... they just read my diary. The downside is that I can't write anything that I wouldn't want certain people to see... That doesn't happenvery often though...

I think it's so stupid how so many people are homophobic, but even most homophobes wouldn't go that far... sad...