Napsterbater
12-16-2006, 03:18 AM
I think I finally solved my biggest and most pressing problem keeping me from succeeding, my individual states of mind. It took a lot of mental conditioning and re-framing before I could stop myself from putting an intensely personal interest in whatever I do, almost like it was a life or death thing.
Now I have freed myself to succeed in the way I want to. Many people want to be larger than life, to sleep with tons of women, to be a big president of a big company, to make hit after hit single, to get to be a supermodel. I am more than happy to dabble in each of these, not caring where they go or what I'm experiencing.
A little bit of it was physical, I have to have a certain level of material success in order to be free, but by far the vast majority of the work done is mental. One needs to find and attack the problems inherent in the mind that keep one from pursuing one's own particular truth. But that's not enough. Attacking the problems doesn't get rid of them. All it does is allow you to come to a greater understanding about how your mind works and gives some ideas of how to work around them.
Ideas like morals and ethics get in the way, but those are how humanity relates to each other. To be able to pursue ones aims without caring about the phantom toes my pursuit will step on is a veritable challenge for morality to accept. Society wants you to play nice with others, to work well in groups, to give before you take. I found it useful to remember the saying of Aristotle; "I have gained this by philosophy: that I do without being commanded what others do only from fear of the law."
So many people must put themselves through hell before they find themselves a measure of peace. Most who don't go through that hell never find peace. I have found something extraordinarily valuable, a way to go through life without the outer hell, yet still have the inner peace. Entrepreneurs must often go broke many times before they finally strike it rich. Students often put themselves through the most absurd of worthless hells before they can spend even more time paying that hell off, to finally get a career that they think is worth having. Was the effort necessary? In many cases, no, one could get an interesting and worthwhile life without college, making lots of money. People often defend college with statistics, forgetting that nobody is an "average student," or the old Mark Twain saw, "There are three kinds of lies, lies, damn lies, and statistics."
I found that peace, that inner peace with which one can move mountains with. As long as I can keep it, I can get anything I want out of the people I'm around, simply by asking, or doing. Any failures in life are due to that lack. The lack of peace caused you to want things you could not have, and to do strange and useless things in order to accomplish them. I was listening to a tape set on the sexual communication that goes on between the sexes, and the speaker was listing the traits that powerful, dominant males display for women. One by one, he listed all of the traits I have exuded myself naturally over the last few weeks, my recent bout of angst notwithstanding. It was that peace that makes me able to float through life with ease.
But it's not enough for me to float. I want to win, I want to have an unusual amount of success. The peace is necessary for that success, it allows you to not take any of that other stuff seriously. It allows me to pick and choose the areas of human knowledge I want to advance. The advances will come two, three years down the road, when I've build up the skills necessary to construct those works I want to do. Right now, all I possess is the ability to learn. The ducks are lining up, soon I will have the measure of material success I need to purchase all the things I will need to begin my first big venture.
I chose music as the venture I want to make it big in. I could do any number of pursuits, business, pick-up artistry, modeling, acting, technology, but music turns me on in a way none of the others could. Pouring the majority of my talents into music will allow me to dabble and have a modest amount of success in many of the others.
Let me talk a little about this material success I have. Any fool can go out there and make money. And most of them do. What I want to do is very different. I want a job in which I make a very favorable amount of money compared to my expenses doing that won't impact either my inner peace, or my time to pursue my dream, music. Slowly, but surely, I will climb my way out of the ten-thousand dollar debt I have, not with a huge plan, but with a number of smaller, more responsive ones, plans that take into account my peculiar quirks like my disdain for authority, lack of discipline, and seeming inability to play well with others, when I'm not at peace. It took my entire life to learn what it was that keeps me at peace, and how I lose it, so now I can take extra special care to work always within my limitations, and to take special measures to quickly restore my peace whenever I am forced to work outside them.
This affords me the opportunity to gently work on my difficulties, setting up a mental foundation that is soft and pliable, yet tough as nails. I can work ever so slightly at expanding my comfort zone until there is nothing I cannot do.
Instead of setting up my success, and planning it all out, setting myself up for failure, I set up the terms I want my success to take. The closer and closer I define those terms to something that is achievable in reality, the easier they are to actually do.
The peace I've built up over the years is not some patch hack job so many people go out to get these days, like yoga, and meditation for fifteen minutes a day, something easily rattled and torn down by the legions of fools the practitioner finds himself surrounded by. It is something I put great effort into obtaining, and it is now robust enough to bank on. It took endless observation of my own mind and how it works, and other's minds and how they react to mine own, to build up a subconscious library of actions and reactions.
Allforums was particularly instrumental in helping me find that peace. Finding the words to fire back upon my attackers and learning how to gently nudge the flow of conversation in order to both keep it relevant and interesting has done wonders for my interactions in real life. There is little hesitation now when I am desiring to say something and don't know what. Whatever just flows into my head, I say that. There is no difficulty anymore with making conversation. Now I just fine tune my reactions.
So many people think that should their material situation be solved, all the mental difficulties they're having will disappear as well. This rarely, if ever, happens. They spend their entire lives searching for that success, and think it is always up the next ladder, beyond that next hill. When if they would just stop for a few seconds and consult a map, they might find it was right next to them the entire time.
So I am happy with being good at what I do, or at working to make it better. I find the material success I am looking for, and pay for my hobby, instead of looking for my hobby to pay me. One day, when it's good enough, should there be a good business model, I will be able to make money. But it will be on my terms, and no one elses.
Now I have freed myself to succeed in the way I want to. Many people want to be larger than life, to sleep with tons of women, to be a big president of a big company, to make hit after hit single, to get to be a supermodel. I am more than happy to dabble in each of these, not caring where they go or what I'm experiencing.
A little bit of it was physical, I have to have a certain level of material success in order to be free, but by far the vast majority of the work done is mental. One needs to find and attack the problems inherent in the mind that keep one from pursuing one's own particular truth. But that's not enough. Attacking the problems doesn't get rid of them. All it does is allow you to come to a greater understanding about how your mind works and gives some ideas of how to work around them.
Ideas like morals and ethics get in the way, but those are how humanity relates to each other. To be able to pursue ones aims without caring about the phantom toes my pursuit will step on is a veritable challenge for morality to accept. Society wants you to play nice with others, to work well in groups, to give before you take. I found it useful to remember the saying of Aristotle; "I have gained this by philosophy: that I do without being commanded what others do only from fear of the law."
So many people must put themselves through hell before they find themselves a measure of peace. Most who don't go through that hell never find peace. I have found something extraordinarily valuable, a way to go through life without the outer hell, yet still have the inner peace. Entrepreneurs must often go broke many times before they finally strike it rich. Students often put themselves through the most absurd of worthless hells before they can spend even more time paying that hell off, to finally get a career that they think is worth having. Was the effort necessary? In many cases, no, one could get an interesting and worthwhile life without college, making lots of money. People often defend college with statistics, forgetting that nobody is an "average student," or the old Mark Twain saw, "There are three kinds of lies, lies, damn lies, and statistics."
I found that peace, that inner peace with which one can move mountains with. As long as I can keep it, I can get anything I want out of the people I'm around, simply by asking, or doing. Any failures in life are due to that lack. The lack of peace caused you to want things you could not have, and to do strange and useless things in order to accomplish them. I was listening to a tape set on the sexual communication that goes on between the sexes, and the speaker was listing the traits that powerful, dominant males display for women. One by one, he listed all of the traits I have exuded myself naturally over the last few weeks, my recent bout of angst notwithstanding. It was that peace that makes me able to float through life with ease.
But it's not enough for me to float. I want to win, I want to have an unusual amount of success. The peace is necessary for that success, it allows you to not take any of that other stuff seriously. It allows me to pick and choose the areas of human knowledge I want to advance. The advances will come two, three years down the road, when I've build up the skills necessary to construct those works I want to do. Right now, all I possess is the ability to learn. The ducks are lining up, soon I will have the measure of material success I need to purchase all the things I will need to begin my first big venture.
I chose music as the venture I want to make it big in. I could do any number of pursuits, business, pick-up artistry, modeling, acting, technology, but music turns me on in a way none of the others could. Pouring the majority of my talents into music will allow me to dabble and have a modest amount of success in many of the others.
Let me talk a little about this material success I have. Any fool can go out there and make money. And most of them do. What I want to do is very different. I want a job in which I make a very favorable amount of money compared to my expenses doing that won't impact either my inner peace, or my time to pursue my dream, music. Slowly, but surely, I will climb my way out of the ten-thousand dollar debt I have, not with a huge plan, but with a number of smaller, more responsive ones, plans that take into account my peculiar quirks like my disdain for authority, lack of discipline, and seeming inability to play well with others, when I'm not at peace. It took my entire life to learn what it was that keeps me at peace, and how I lose it, so now I can take extra special care to work always within my limitations, and to take special measures to quickly restore my peace whenever I am forced to work outside them.
This affords me the opportunity to gently work on my difficulties, setting up a mental foundation that is soft and pliable, yet tough as nails. I can work ever so slightly at expanding my comfort zone until there is nothing I cannot do.
Instead of setting up my success, and planning it all out, setting myself up for failure, I set up the terms I want my success to take. The closer and closer I define those terms to something that is achievable in reality, the easier they are to actually do.
The peace I've built up over the years is not some patch hack job so many people go out to get these days, like yoga, and meditation for fifteen minutes a day, something easily rattled and torn down by the legions of fools the practitioner finds himself surrounded by. It is something I put great effort into obtaining, and it is now robust enough to bank on. It took endless observation of my own mind and how it works, and other's minds and how they react to mine own, to build up a subconscious library of actions and reactions.
Allforums was particularly instrumental in helping me find that peace. Finding the words to fire back upon my attackers and learning how to gently nudge the flow of conversation in order to both keep it relevant and interesting has done wonders for my interactions in real life. There is little hesitation now when I am desiring to say something and don't know what. Whatever just flows into my head, I say that. There is no difficulty anymore with making conversation. Now I just fine tune my reactions.
So many people think that should their material situation be solved, all the mental difficulties they're having will disappear as well. This rarely, if ever, happens. They spend their entire lives searching for that success, and think it is always up the next ladder, beyond that next hill. When if they would just stop for a few seconds and consult a map, they might find it was right next to them the entire time.
So I am happy with being good at what I do, or at working to make it better. I find the material success I am looking for, and pay for my hobby, instead of looking for my hobby to pay me. One day, when it's good enough, should there be a good business model, I will be able to make money. But it will be on my terms, and no one elses.