Hello all, I am Napsterbater, and I am a nihilist.

My nihilism only really manifests itself in philisophical form, however, I always find myself butting up against psychological barriers in my mind before I can ever accomplish anything truly nihilistic, though I try to work against those barriers whenever possible.

I don't believe in good, evil, right, wrong, or even the more basic dichotomy of positive and negative. Whenever I see a story that many people would think to be exceptionally sad or happy, I might marvel at the beauty of the situation, but I never see it as a good or a bad thing.

For as long as I can remember, I have been observing and cataloging human behavior in my mind. I see all the people around me as sleeping machines incapable of true thought or action. I have never run into an unpredictable person. Even so, I am trying to understand the human experience. Even though people never surprise me, I never cease to be interested in them. At times I poke or prod them in odd ways just to see how they react, adding the interactions to my huge subconscious database.

To me, nothing but human experience exists. The answer to the question, "If a tree falls in the woods and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?" is no. If humans cannot observe it, it does not exist. The basic building block of the universe is the idea. We can easily change the entire universe simply by changing our idea of it. I have ideas, but not beliefs. My ongoing experiment is attempting to articulate the growing structure of ideas I have in my mind describing the human experience. The structure seems incredibly responsive to any paradigm I attempt to throw at it. As such, it is pretty easy for me to get along with folks, because I am always capable of adapting my experience structure to theirs.

Without fail, I always see other's experience structures as incomplete, failing in numerous and repeated ways. I like to keep abreast of certain psychological and cognitive advances in science that fundamentally alter the way we think about the brain. Those are the primary vehicles I use when I try to articulate a proper way to think about the world, even if I myself do not believe one exists. In my mind, I will always be right, and the person I am interacting with will forever be wrong. It matters little to me what the other thinks. I simply challenge belief structures any way that I can that will enable me to enlarge my dataset of the human experience.

In short, I'm a motherfucking Einstein, bitches! :cool:

I'm really not sure how long I'll hang around this time, just playing around with idle time. Fire away folks, those of you who know me already know that I expect no less.

Hello all, I am Napsterbater, and I am a nihilist.
Finally, I'm not alone!

This entry sounds like an AA meeting. :D

Welcome back Napster although I am not so sure of your "with a brand new rap" claim.

Anyway, I read your post with interest especially the part about, no right and no wrong (per se). That is an interesting view that I am currently working on. I still cling to the old thought patterns probably because they have worked for me so far. But the new direction is working too... so I will look forward to reading your posts to see the slant.
catch ya in a thread...............have fun 'til ya vanish again...

Welcome back Napster although I am not so sure of your "with a brand new rap" claim.

Damn, to have been found out so soon... I must be losing my touch.

I came to it because nothing else seemed to work, but a fundamentally negative attitude towards life in general. I don't see it as negative, but everybody else would. To me it was like learning how to walk, finding out how to apply this philosophy. Eventually you learn how, and every other way just seems completely unnatural.

Damn, to have been found out so soon... I must be losing my touch.

I came to it because nothing else seemed to work, but a fundamentally negative attitude towards life in general. I don't see it as negative, but everybody else would. To me it was like learning how to walk, finding out how to apply this philosophy. Eventually you learn how, and every other way just seems completely unnatural.
I just love how you're half my age and not afraid to explore every possible direction, and philosophy etc. It's one of the things I really admire in many of the young people today.

I think that lots of things seem to "work" for me...but somehow this direction just makes sense. We attach the right or wrong to it... I don't view it as negative actually, just neutral. :) Anyway good to see ya back.
Later

I see all the people around me as sleeping machines incapable of true thought or action.
Ah. You work around Government Servants then.

At times I poke or prod them in odd ways just to see how they react, adding the interactions to my huge subconscious database.

In short, I'm a motherfucking Einstein, bitches! :cool:
Excellent. Can you do that thing where you make blue flames shoot out of your eyes, like the main bad guy in Big Trouble In Little China??
'Cause I'd really like to see that.

I don't believe in good, evil, right, wrong, or even the more basic dichotomy of positive and negative.
An understandable, and even enviable position to find yourself in, young sir.
When I was in my mid-20's I found it very convenient to operate without a moral compass. It allowed me to justify having everything I wanted, regardless of what anyone else wanted or needed, and with no regard whatsoever for the possible consequences.

I consumed life. True, I worked hard enough at my job, but in the meantime I drank like Robert Shaw and Ernest Hemmingway combined. And drove my enormous automobile even faster and better for having done so. I devoured women, and engaged in dozens of affairs, usually with married women. I was the smartest and most clever guy in the world, maybe even the Universe. I rode fast shiny motorcycles at three times the speed of sound, and whenever I chose to stop at a traffic light, I looked down upon the puny mortals, trapped in their dull, insignificant cars and minivans, as though they were some sort of lesser, alien species.

Something has changed for me, however, in the past few years. I'm still the smartest and most clever guy in the Universe (except for you perhaps, though I still haven't seen blue flames jump out of your eyes). But I have discovered humility, and I do feel strongly about right and wrong. Maybe it's just that I've grown up, and finally met and married a woman who has captured my heart in the most compelling and unexpected way. Or perhaps having daughters (and now a baby Granddaughter) has become the chink in my armor.

Good luck to you, young nihilistic Napsterbator.
You are HUGE, and don't let anybody tell you any different.
Stay huge for as long as you can.

Just don't get yourself killed in the process.
(Living large, fast motorcycles, drunk driving, and jealous husbands with handguns can do you in if you're not careful.)
:eek:

WB Napster. Nice to see that some things never change. ;-)

Sparky2...at least he is thinking, and contemplating life. You seem to have turned out okay... well......maybe a tad better than okay. :D

Welcome back Nap; I see the therapy didn't work. :thumbs:

Can you do that thing where you make blue flames shoot out of your eyes, like the main bad guy in Big Trouble In Little China??

No. But I have on occasion made it come out of my ass. Usually only after eating the burritos they serve out of the taco carts in the city.

But I have discovered humility, and I do feel strongly about right and wrong.

When you are young, you have little need for humility, and it messes with you if you try to pretend like you have it. Around thirty-five though, all that weird rockstar shit you believe about yourself is well past it's sell-by date, and it starts to fuck your life up if you still take it seriously. *shrugs*

Welcome back Nap; I see the therapy didn't work.

My old therapist is paying me now. I had to start charging her for all the sex she says her husband never gives her.

Welcome back Napster.

I seem to remember you left saying you were going to create some awesome community to fill with people like yourself. How did that all work out? Can we see a link?