O.k. here's my question: In all of the move and such, and for reasons I can't explain. I havn't taken my medicince (zoloft) for about two weeks now. I think I felt I didn't need it right now, that maybe I was depending on it too much. I never wanted to become one of those people that can't be happy except by chemical inducements. BUt I'm thinking right now that was a mistake.

If I start taking my medicine again today, how long before it get's back into my system and will it work. Or in my arrogance have I shot myself in the proverbial foot?

A little backround.
After quiting my job and moving in with my in laws. (really I like them so it's ok) I had begun to look in earnest but one of my better leads fell flat. Feeling panicked, I did something I didn't think I would do. I went to a telemarketing firm and applied. I know these types of places, as long as you have a pulse, can read and type, your hired.

This paticular place is a pretty high class operation and they do fundraising work. THey even promised to match what I was making at my old job. So feeling the pressure to bring in a paycheck, I took it.

Today is the last day of training, I'm miserable. I can do the job, that's not the problem. Yesterday they had us on the phones all day. Today there will be a test and then they shove us right back on there. I just hate it. I can feel it in my bones that this is one of those jobs that just sucks the life right out of you.

So I've taken it on myself to be more forward in my job hunting. On top of everything else the job is the late shift, 2 to 11pm. Which means I only get to see my son for about 20 min. in the morning. Which is really taking a toll on me. I've worked late shifts before, but that was before Evan. I'm finding it real hard not being with him during the day. Oh yeah of course their idea of matching the nine dollars an hour is only based on performance. Fundraising isn't as easy as it sounds, and with their little formula (which I'm convinced would give Stephen Hawking a headache) Something tells me my higher rate of pay won't be that steady.

Kathy's out of town this week, so I've been taking Evan to school. He threw a fit on me this morning. (typical 4yr old fit) I lost it, I began screaming like a madman. Which scared the bejeesus out of him. If your someone like me, that is not how you ever want to see your kid. Now I feel like shit on the belly of a snail that crawled through it
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Sorry to so long winded but I think typing this out is a bit cathartic. Thanks again to any advice you all can give.

It will take several days before you again feel the effects of your medication. Newer mood-elevating and anti-depressants work differently than those of years ago, by more directly having an effect on brain chemistry. You should get in touch with the doc who put you on the meds or a new "family" doc to discuss this further. PM me.

I've heard many times that people on meds such as yours stop taking them when they feel better and then end up in a bit of a vicious cycle where they're on again and off again. Maybe you're better off taking it until your doctor can comment on whether you really need to continue.

As far as the job goes, life's too short to stick with a job you just can't stand, but you're better off in all kinds of ways if you find a new job before you quit.

Have you thought about going back to school to further your education, pendragon?
Some local colleges even offer jobs and/or help with job searches that would match your talents to a specific job.
Or, check out your local library--many have up to the minute job postings there that you might not find elsewhere.
I'd keep taking the medicine and also keep looking for another job with better hours, even if the pay isn't all that great.
You cannot put a pricetag on your health and family.
Good luck to you, and hang in there. :)

My bride is a pharmacy tech, and she agrees with es347fan.
Begin taking the Zoloft, as prescribed, immediately. You'll feel better in a few days (to two weeks, max).

Don't ever quit taking an SSRI suddenly like that. There is a careful weaning process required, physician-supervised, whenever you do want to quit.

You are not a bad parent, and you are not going nuts. You are just under a lot of stress. (And the fact that you care enough to ask for advice speaks volumes about your care and concern for your little boy.)
Hang in there, it'll get better.
:thumbs:

Just for general information:

I once thought that I had a case of depression.
It was not known here at the time, but I learned of a natural herb product that was used in Europe that had no known side-effects.
It was called Sam-E, available in the U.S. now.

It took several days to effect me, but really worked. I only had to take it a short while and had no withdrawal effects what-so-ever.

Now you can get it at health stores or off the shelf at Wal-mart.

You might talk to your Doctor about something like this in the event you have problems with the prescribed drug.

Thanks guys, it means a lot. I mean I haven't been around here that long, nice to know there are decent people out there who care.

As for continuing my education, I would like to. I've just never felt comfortable enough (financially) to try that. But perhaps I should take a chance and look into further.

My plan if I really have one is to apply vigorously during the day, work my shift, and keep the money coming in. Hopefully I'll be able to land something pretty quickly. No better motivator for looking hard, like realizing you signed a deal with the devil.

Kathy came home tonight, and we talked a bit before she went to sleep. I am doing pretty much what you've all advised. I've begun my meds again. SHe will start the paperwork and get me on her ins and once that is done, I will find a new family doc. and will discuss things with him. Thanks for help though, I appreciate it.

Sparky, thanks for the support. Perhaps it took hitting a low so to speak to make me realize I do need help.